8:24 a.m. - 2007-04-12
misery loves company
This will be brief, as I have children to feed and laundry to do and luggage to pack and van seats to install and...you get the picture.
NMHusband has been clued in to my depths of misery, my crushes, and my requests for actions on his part. Really clued in, as I burned a cd which included fun songs from our past and a six song block which he labelled "the depressing part." I, myself, called it "must be honest here and tell you how I'm feeling now." I let you all see the list and judge.
I'll be You ** The Replacements
No Reply at All **Genesis
Total Eclipse of the Heart **Bonnie Tyler
Landslide **Fleetwood Mac
Strong Enough **Sheryl Crow
Love in the Library **Jimmy Buffett (which was not intended to be a screaming wake-up call, but worked out that way....)
He was a bit peeved that I billed the mix as "some random songs I threw on here." Yes, well... I had no desire to say, "oh, let me play this mix of songs that make me think of how we were, and how we are, and how happy and miserable you make me sometimes." With a warning like that, his listening tends to lack productivity. And I wanted him to listen. Which he did, and realized that every song was chosen carefully and specifically. He's not an idiot, just self-involved. But I knew that going into this marriage. Some days it bothers me more than others.
I forsee continued improvements on the homefront, though. And that is all that matters.
